I don't ever want to be rapped again

For the rest of my life-

I do not want to be rapped.

I do not want to be put in any position 

To where I have no other choice but to consent to sex. 

If I say no.

It means no.

I don't deserve to be rapped just because I am a mixed nationality.

I don't want to live in strife and constant persecution or neglect.

I am not suicidal.

I'm sick of being abused and punished.

I feel so alone and I am not lonely.

I have no one to turn to.