Tuesday, October 19, 2021

Day of diary

I used to use my blog for writing. So I am going to do that.

Caramel bracelets 
I have eyelashes made of xylophones
They flutter from A to Z 
Based on my memories response 
To how I’m blocking 
out their darts and dangers.
If I walk around myself any longer
I’m going to get lost 
in everything I cannot remember .
I have never felt so awkward and obnoxious 
And it’s a hand me down 
smoke screen anyway. 
I do not have to wear that dress
But I keep looking at my 
own shoes like I’m waiting 
on them to dance to the music. 
I’m not a dancer.
I have no desire to do anything.
I just want it fixed. 
Just the idea of being 
Shoved into that portrait 
And corset makes me feel 
Diseased, worthless and humiliated. 


Play toe
Pilot boy has a circus to conduct
While he smiles 
He lies to the sea
He tells the fish that the net is 
A free vacation.
I am watching the recap from 
A dock off on the eastern seaboard 
Spin off the hula hoops 
It’s a parade of parasites 
They suck the breath right out of me
I crumble inside and 
I am all out of hope. 
It’s a stitch of composition 
Put together by the most 
piss ignorant switch. 

Given magic
He gives me hope
That there is still hope
That my soul is still 
Deep inside me. 
He is far away and 
Invisible