Wednesday, July 5, 2017

I now have a home of my own.

This is not a joke.
I did finish everything today. I bought a home. I got a discount on payments. They said I do not have to make a payment until Sept 1, 2017. So I bought myself that couch that I wanted. Tomorrow David Mosley will come over and help me move. He wants to come over around 10 AM.  Lewis said that he would help to. I just came from the house. I asked Lewis to change the locks. He is so amazing. MeriJo and Lewis helped me.
I need to go get that other box from the garage and pack up what is left to pack. This is great.
I now have a home.
I did take the cleaning supplies over there.
I need to look into taxes. 
Nothing is that big of a deal. I have almost let my eyebrowls grown back.
I need to shave them and draw them on.
I left my charger for my iphone in Leeann's car.
I will spend the night in the new house tomorrow.
This is great.
 

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

Something very odd; a Jessica using my information

Today is independence day.  That is supposed to mean something to people.
That is not what this blog is about for now.
I have a problems and I have to document them. 
I have had the weirdest set of events going on in my life. So now I get to talk about them.

Okay so....
A few days back I get a bank statement.
It shows a charge for Avira.
I did not renew on this pc because I was going to return it.
I went to the bank and I ask for a refund.
The bank said no problem but for me to contact Avira and tell them about it.
This is where it gets odd.
Avira has no record of charging my checking account for 116 dollars.
Arvest gave me back my money.
Because of the situation, I ask to change my debit card information.
Meaning get a new card. 
So The bank says okay, that will cost 7 dollars and 50 cents for the new card.
Okay no problem.
Then I go to check my balance on Saturday.
Saturday was an odd day.
I woke up and my bedroom door was wide open, as though someone came into my bedroom.
But no one claimed to come into my bedroom.
Okay;
So I go to an atm.
I check my balance first.
Then I take out 40 dollars.
Interesting story.
SSI is on time.
It was going to go into my account on the 3rd.
But this was days before;
So where did the 1000 extra come from.
It only spooked me because I am in the due process of trying to buy a home.
I have a money cd with Arvest.
What if someone went in and yeah.
moved stuff around to take a little off the top. 
Here lately things are just odd.
Then on the 3rd I went into the Dewey Branch. I ask what my balance was.
They said the same amount that was there Saturday. I ask when ssi went into my bank.
They said it was just posting on the 3rd.
Then she said it was trying to post on Saturday.
I go to Walmart.
My step dad and I cannot find each other.
He says that he waited for almost 45 minutes.
There is more.
Some stupid girl on face book wrote me because she thinks I want to be her.
NOPE but you should see her stuff.
It is not this way around.
MaryLynn Stinson.
I make a simple site again.
To post my stuff about my situation.
Then ; someone deletes my site.
BUT WHO.
NO ONE KNEW ABOUT IT YET.
Then I get a weird text a few days before that money went into my account.
It was from some company saying that they wanted to give me 5 thousand dollars.
I ask why?
They did not make sense.
But they wanted me to cash it out in someone elses name.
HELL TO THE NO.
I'm not going to jail over that.
I keep finding people online who imitate me.
They use my personal information for their sorry profiles.
Where do they come from.
They are actually using my address.
I've had a birthmark since I was born.
I have proof of that.
Okay check this one out;
But what is odd;
This girl uses my address for her profile but....
in her url it says alisi next to Jessica.
What is alisi,? Is that her real name.
She does not have any rights from me to use my information.
This is her url;
 https://www.mylife.com/alisi-jessica/alisijessica

okay there is more.
A few weeks ago, 
my storage unit was broke into.
It really was.
They stole from me.
But what is odd about it.
They did not cut the lock.
They had a key or a way to pick it .
What is going on?
There are a few more of these idiots.
I am just now finding them.
I guess I'm going to have to call the police.
What else is there to do?
Here is that Jessica Alisi girls picture next to my own;

 

Saturday, July 1, 2017

Red Light by Jessica Singleton

The Red Light
By;
Jessica Singleton

"I do not need to spend two days or three days or even one day in jail. I have never done anything at all. Why would you talk about my fate? You are not me. You are not a boss or judge. Not unless you are the one doing this to me."

" What I've felt, what I've known, So I dub thee unforgiven." - Metallica

" Pain has an element of blank. " - Emily Dickinson

" It is that place in the dark that echoes inside of your own mind. No one can replace what is missing inside of you. But no one can hear the rumors that your imagination creates. Paranoia is a real illness. But According to definition, paranoia is basically the fear of something that does not exist. But it must. Or else, You would not be there." - And that would be me.

Red lights are slow to go away. Green lights seem to only last up to the point , where you need to go.  Yellow though , they are the ones that do not seem to exist.
Wait or go.
There is no other choice.

I sleep in when I can. I have always had a hard time sleeping. Here lately, sleep is like a tiny drip from a sink faucet.
So small.
But the tiny sound seems to echo and I can hear it even without my attention turned on.
I do not have a fear of a monster that does not exist.
Oh it does.
But no one can see it but me.
I've never felt so alone. I am surrounded by silhouetted memories that walk and talk.
They do and I can hear them as clear as day.
But they really are not there. Are they? Not anymore.

Today I met a man in a monkey costume again.  He wonders around and he talks because he cannot sing.
He looks like something that belongs in a cage in a pet store.  It has big eyes and you want to take it home but the cage smells like bo, AND it keeps pulling it's tiny pee pee out to leak all over the place.

I walked around the park for a while. I listened to my ear buds and I drank this amazing frozen smoothy from the shop up the road.  That made me happy.
It got me out of my own cage.
I have never avoided going home as much as I do now. Not since childhood.

I finally moved out and I was approved to buy my own home. I moved into a different place and finally I was safe.
The monkey man ask me out. We went to a hotel in the city for drinks. I had to much to drink at the bar. I went to catch a cab. I had my umbrella with me.
Then I went to the cab. I got in the back seat and I told the guy where to take me.
I looked up at him at one point because he was going to fast.
He was not a human. He was a crash test dummy. I realized I was the one behind the wheel.
It was all my own regret at that point.
I was awake. But I was able to take control before I crashed.
The END

art credit in this one to Escher